feeling so damnit once again..

normally when i dun slp at night, i will be in my room quietly (not allowing my mum to noe im still awake).. as for last night, out of the sudden i was at the living room.. was msging and the tv was switched on, but as usual i wasnt paying any attention to the show.. soon, everyone was awake and preparing to go out.. my parents didnt even scolded me for not slpping the whole day.. jux when they were abt to leave, i den realised.. im still a little silly gal! upon seeing my parents leaving to work and my sis going to sch, i suddenly feel so scared.. the hse became soooo quiet after they left, leaving me here.. at tt moment, how i wish they could all cum back.. i hate this.. im jux lyk small kid, crying out loud for my family members.. it jux remind me of going to sch when i was young.. the feeling wasnt tt nice afterall.. i feel so toopid, so childish too!! hmph. honestly speaking, i duno wad actually happened which makes me feel tt way.. having trains of thoughts now.. wif more zibi, i think im noeing wad's making me feel/think this way but at the same time, mayb it turns out to be worst for me?